“Divine Comfort: A Daughter’s Dream of Redemption”
Living a life with no regrets is the best life one can ever have. Having regrets in your life is not easy because you can’t alter the result no matter how hard you want and somehow you have to learn to live with that to attain the peace of your mind and heart.
If somebody asks me, “Naseema do you have any regret in your life” unfortunately, I can not say ‘no’ to it. There is something in my life, I wish I could have changed, I wish I could have behaved differently, I wish I could have listened to my heart. But alas, I didn’t and I know I will never get the opportunity to do that again.
When my husband was hospitalized, because of dengue and his situation got critical, at that time my father visited me. I saw him after 1 year and I must thank ‘Corona’ for it because I had to avoid traveling as ‘Rayan’ (my son) was very young at that time and the second wave of COVID was around. My father couldn’t visit me because of a health issue.
Though we used to talk on video calls regularly seeing him right in front of me was very different. He recently recovered from a health issue and so looked very pale and tired. I could see the pain in his eyes for his daughter.
He came in the morning, slept the whole day and in the evening we went to visit my husband. My father was petrified seeing Imran (my husband) lying on the bed with swelled arms attached with drip on both sides. Though I told him he was out of danger, I could see he looked unsatisfied.
He must have felt very helpless. A father who has protected his daughter his entire life, who was ready to do anything for her, couldn’t help her in this critical situation, I felt that agony in his eyes.
After returning from the hospital, he left for the railway station. Before sitting in the cab, he put his hand on my head and told me not to worry and that he was always there for me. Also, he asked me not to go home alone from the hospital as it was very late (11.15 pm).
At that very time, I wanted to hug him tightly and cry. I wanted to tell him that he was the best father and I loved him but I don’t know why I couldn’t do that. There was a part of me that told me, ‘Naseema hug him, you might not get this opportunity, but I shrugged that feeling off.
I didn’t want him to worry about me so I suppressed the urge of hugging him and just looked at him with blurry eyes and soon the cab left.
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I wish I would have stopped the cab and asked him to hug me. I wish I would have told him that I love him very much and he should take care of himself but I couldn’t say any of those words.
I never knew that I would never get that opportunity again. I never knew I would never be able to see his face or listen to him again. It hurts. I miss him and I regret not being able to hug him for the last time.
Life is undoubtedly a great teacher. It even teaches you to live with the memory of our dear ones who have been your lifeline and you can’t even imagine your life without them.
I miss Abba a lot. When something good or bad happens in my life, I miss him the most. I wish I could talk to him and take his advice. I wish I could hear his voice again.
God has been kind to me. I know some people have never met their parents in their life and they don’t know what their love feels like. My heart is full of gratitude for the kindness that God showed me, but sometimes when I see a father taking care of his daughter my heart melts. I miss my father very much at that time.
My friends used to make fun of me when I was in college. They used to laugh and say. “Naseema ko to ek phone ghumana hai aur uske Abba jaan college gate par a jayenge use lene”(she just has to give him a call and he will be at the college gate to pick her up). And it was the fact, he was always always available for me. Fathers are like this I guess.
This Ramzan, something wonderful happened to me and I am very thankful to God for being so kind to me. As I told you earlier, I have regret in my heart for not hugging my father for the last time even when my heart was screaming. This Ramzan I hugged my father in my dreams. Not just once but twice and it felt so real. He was smiling and I had tears in my eyes.
This feeling is so great. I know it is just a dream, but the contentment it gave me is beyond what my words can describe. I opened my eyes smilingly. I felt God rewarded me for my prayers.
He knew what could soothe my heart and he blessed me with that. You are always rewarded for your prayers, and people who believe will get rewarded. That dream is the miracle of my life and I will never want to forget that.
God has shown me again that he is always with me and he cares for my true desire.
My heart is full of gratitude right now and I am overwhelmed writing my experience here.
Your true desires will always be taken care of. You just have to believe and do the right thing and you will experience the miracle.
DIVINE COMFORT: A DAUGHTER’S DREAM OF REDEMPTION
