Why wait for tomorrow when all you have is your today…!
Finally, this year has also passed. The year that has taught me so many things. Things that were just words to me, I got to know the meaning of it. I am thankful that God has given me this opportunity to write and to express my gratitude.
He has given me such a beautiful life and a wonderful family whom I adore a lot. He has given me a dream that pushes me forward every single day and that gives me the courage to stand even after the dark night. A blessed life with a vision and a purpose and belief in myself that I deserve it, I just have to work on it.
The year 2021 gave me a lot of things in both my personal and professional life and I am really grateful for that. But I have lost one of the most precious things of my life which I can never get back and I just have to make peace with it. And this feeling is painful and now I know, what the pain in the heart feels like.
I loved my father a lot. He was a man with a golden heart. A person whom I could always look up to and who was always there for me. I never imagined my life without him ever and now I have to live without him. The feeling of not being able to talk to him is heart-wrenching.
When I started my practicing career as an Architect and Interior Designer, like every protective father he suggested me not to take that huge step. But when I did it without listening to him or anybody, he supported me always.
Things were so difficult in the beginning and being a girl there was another level of challenge but he never asked me to step back or leave whatever I had started. He was always there to support me like a pillar.
He always used to say,’ it takes time to build something, so I should be patient and deliver my best. And I should always keep trying and should never give up no matter what.’ He was a self-made man and he knew very well what I was going through.
Today with God’s grace when things were working fine, he used to be very happy and more excited than me whenever I discussed new projects with him. Seeing him happy made me happier. With time things will evolve and grow (inshallah), but I won’t be able to share those moments with him again.
Life took a very important part of me and that can never be replaced. I still know how to smile and how to laugh, but I think I am emotionally draining from the inside. Things are difficult for me these days but someday time will heal this pain too.
WHY WAIT FOR TOMORROW?
This year gave me a huge lesson. We all know this thing, people who have entered this world, have to go one day. But we don’t know when that ‘one day’ will come. We leave so many things for tomorrow. We forget to express our gratitude for things that we have and run behind things that are beyond our control.
We ignore our family and loved ones and take them for granted. We never mention how much we love them and care for them and keep all our feelings in our hearts, thinking they are aware of them.
There is no tomorrow. All you have is your present. Be kind with your words. You never know what the next moment holds for you. So take charge of your present.
My father was all fine in the morning, hospitalized in the evening and we lost him the very next day. I didn’t get time to talk to him or to see him in his last moments. I didn’t get time to tell him that I loved him and we are so proud of him for the wonderful life he lived. I have always been expressive with my words, but I still wish I could have said it more.
Don’t wait for tomorrow. If you love someone express it. If you are proud of someone express it. If you are happy express it. If you are grateful, express it. If you want to do something in your life, just start doing it. One moment is sufficient to take away things that you have right now. So cherish what you have and practice gratitude.
I am grateful that God has shown me what a father’s love is. There are so many kids in the world who have never seen their father or who have lost their parents when they were very young. At least I got an opportunity to spend some good times with my father. You have to find ways to help yourself and this is my way of soothing my pain. Maybe someday the pain of my heart will dissipate.
Life is unpredictable. Don’t let tomorrow stop you to do something that you should be doing today. Tomorrow never comes and it is the bitter truth of life. You just have this moment in your hand. Make it count. Spend time with your family, talk to your friends…. work on your dreams… do whatever you wanted to do tomorrow.
Don’t wait for tomorrow and live in the moment. Enjoy every moment. Take control of your present because your present is going to define your future.
With this post, I wish you all a very HAPPY NEW YEAR………………….
May Allah bless your life with all the happiness and prosperity and good health.
I know this post is not positive like my other posts, but I am missing my father a lot today and I wanted to write my first post this year in memory of my father. I wish I could have wished him in person and told him again that I loved him a lot and I am really really proud of him…..
I miss you Abba. I miss you the way you used say ‘hillo’ whenever you called me. I miss you the way you used to say ‘piyari bitiya’… I miss your laugh… I miss your daat… I miss your positive words…….. Apki baut yad ati h Abba…………………… I don’t know when will I learn to say all these things without tears in my eyes.
Allah apke rooh ko sukoon de aur apko jannat ul firdaus me aala makam ata kare…………… Ameen.
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